Sunday at Grandma's - Grandma Barb Shares

Today will will hear from my mother-in-law, and Nora's Grandma Barb, on "How it feels to be a grieving grandparent."  Thank you, Barb, for allowing me to share such private thoughts.  I know you are more of an inward griever.  

Thank you again.  And I, too, wish that you and Hannah could of had tea parties with Nora.  

Much Love to you.
  

How does it feel to be a grieving grandparent? 

 

I guess I would have to say there are a lot of different feelings, most of them not all that good.   Sometimes just out of the blue I cry.   Little things make me cry, such as a crying baby or a toddler just learning to walk.   I have a very hard time at sporting events when they play the National Anthem, I will never hear them play it for Nora.  When friends or co-workers show me pictures of their new grandbabies, or just talk about them, I am so happy for them. It is a wondrous time. I truly am happy for them, but then I come home where I can be alone & shed more tears. 

 

Some days I sit and think of all the things that Nora and Grandma would do together, (I am sure Hannah would have been there also as she wouldn't want to miss any of the fun stuff.)  I am pretty sure Nora would have loved the tea parties.

Over the years of my life, I have lost many loved ones, but never until December 30, 2012 did I feel such a physical ache. When I am being particularly sad, it physically hurts at times. It is slowly getting better, but the emotional pain is still raw.         
                                                                                                                                                                               

Some days I just like to look at her pictures and feel her love around me.   That is a very peaceful feeling.   I like those times.

-Grandma Barb