January 26th, 2013
My Dear Sweet Nora,
It has been a few days, and I really don't have much to say. I just miss you. I wanted to write to spend time with you, focus on you. But rest assured, I think about you everyday, many times a day. Tonight I have been staring at your picture that is next to my bed. Oh, honey how I miss you, and wish I could have seen you smile.
Your dad brought home a necklace for me on Friday. It's the necklace that has your footprint in it, your real footprint! I wear it around my neck all the time and with pride. Along with the ring your dad and I picked out as my "push gift" for giving birth to you, for becoming your mom. I call it Nora's ring.
Your dad misses you a lot. He is a wonderful man. Very sweet, yet strong and compassionate. He is having a hard time with you not being here. Oh, Nora, how I wish you got to experience him like I do. He loved you so much, from the minute I told him we were pregnant, probably even before that. He's a good man and an even better dad. He's our hero, yours and mine. I'm sure you would have been a daddy's girl. I would have liked that and I know he would have loved it. I envision a miniature me running around, following your dad, so curious about everything he does and I'm sure you would have looked up at him with so much love and admiration. I know I do.
Honey, I could talk about your dad forever. I love him so much, and you were made from that love. We did a good job with you. You were so beautiful! And you brought us great joy for the time you were with us. We are both thankful for that. As you know, your dad and I hope to have little brothers or sisters for you some day. I hope that happens, not to replace you Nora, but to have other children, made from your dad and mine's love, like you, to give all our love to in this life. We wish that would have been you. We wish we could love you by holding you in our arms, watching you grow, and guiding you. But instead we are forced to love you from afar.
Am I a mom, Nora? I know that I am your mom, so I guess, yes. I am a mom. Thank you for giving me that sweetie. Oh, honey, how I miss you. I wish I could give you a good night kiss tonight.
Kisses and cuddles.
Love Always & Forever,